- •I took the case. Somebody had to do it and I’m too poor to keep my hands clean.
- •Chapter 2
- •I also let that pass. Danny has an exaggerated opinion of my decadence.
- •I started to put my sweater back on.
- •I didn’t wait long, fortunately, because money does not guarantee taste, as this sitting room proved.
- •I decided the walk would do me good. Besides, I didn’t think I had the exact change for a bus or the patience for Quarter parking.
- •I handed her my private investigator’s license. She looked at it for a minute.
- •It was too much. I had to burst out laughing. I was remembering why he had left me. It was back in sixth grade. This only caused Barbara to look more concerned. Maybe I had gone crazy.
- •I didn’t see her again until after lunch. We ran into each other in the bathroom.
- •I handed him over. He let out a breathy mew at being moved, but he didn’t seem to mind too much. Cordelia pulled her jacket around him. He was a little marmalade cat with big green eyes.
- •I shrugged to show that it wasn’t important. I turned back down the way we came.
- •It was Danny.
- •It was Monday morning again. But this was the last Monday morning that I would have to deal with bright and early, at least for a while.
- •I walked out of the door and into one of the guards.
- •I dialed Sergeant Ranson’s number. Some bored clerk answered.
- •I tripped instead, doing what I hoped they wouldn’t notice was a shoulder roll. I used my landing as an excuse to make some noise.
- •I was sitting there feeling very dirty, not to mention sorry for myself, when Danny Clayton walked by. Without recognizing me, I might add.
- •I told them my story with only a slight interruption for dinner. It took me over two hours, between my fatigue and Ranson’s questions.
- •I started to protest, but was interrupted by the phone. Danny picked it up, then handed it to me. It was Ranson.
- •Visiting hours wouldn’t start for a while, so my first destination was Sergeant Ranson’s office to see if she had arrested Milo and cohorts yet.
- •I had to say something or I’d start sniffling.
- •I started laughing. It wasn’t that funny, but it was too absurd for my present state of mind.
- •I shuddered. It wasn’t a pleasant thought.
- •I looked up. Miss Clavish was standing there, in her prim navy blue dress, wearing white gloves and holding a large shotgun. That was the thunderclap—she had fired over our heads and into the wall.
- •I started to protest, to say that as long as Barbara Selby was in this hospital, I wasn’t dropping out, but Ranson waved me silent.
- •I slowly sat up, then slid off the examining table and assumed a standing position.
- •I picked up my canvas bag, found the keys that Ms. (it had to be Ms., not Miss, after that shotgun trick) Clavish had removed from my door. I locked up and we left.
- •I finished in the bathroom in time to hear the tail end of her last message. It was a male voice saying he’d see her real soon and that he loved her and so on.
- •I stuck my head in.
- •I went back into the living room and put on the Brandenburg Concertos to lend a cultured air to this affair. Danny nodded approval at my choice.
- •I knew that by “in time” she meant Barbara more than she meant me. I was glad that Barbara hadn’t been forgotten.
- •I picked up the heavy platter and carried it out to the table.
- •I heard my answering machine being played back.
- •I made introductions. Torbin explained his plans for the next few days. Good food, great movies, and perhaps a few lessons on makeup. I didn’t ask whether he meant Frankie or me.
- •I got in, leaving my door open, and turned the ignition. The engine hummed smoothly, all the usual clanking sounds gone.
- •I quickly put the tools away. Ben was staring at the unchanging marsh when I came back.
- •I spotted Ranson.
- •I noticed a patch of yellow under one of the rags. I picked it up. A half-empty tube of horse liniment. Equus Ben-Gay. No, I couldn’t do that. Not even to Karen Holloway.
- •I saw Frankie at the far edge of the light. He was standing by himself, waiting, it seemed.
- •I nodded. She opened the door. The hallway was empty.
- •I kissed her on the mouth. Then I put my arms around her and held her. She returned the embrace and the kiss for a moment, then she broke off.
- •It wasn’t a disaster, it was delicious. Fortunately, neither Ranson nor I had bet on it being inedible.
- •I looked at her like she was crazy.
- •I was close enough to see Cordelia’s face. The barrel of Ben’s gun was pressed against her neck. Her eyes were a blazing blue against the stark paleness of her skin.
- •I remembered Alma, small, pale blond, and eight months pregnant. David, their son, pale like his mother, was three.
- •I refused to bow my head. I had nothing to pray for.
- •I jerked. Other hunters with other guns aiming at other people.
- •I nodded, knowing I was asking too much.
- •I nodded. “Eight months.”
- •I puzzled for a minute.
- •I was hungry. All I’d had to eat so far today were the crawfish on the pier.
- •I put my hand on her arm to stop her.
- •I shrugged.
- •I led the way and lit some candles and a hurricane lantern to light the kitchen. I started the wood stove. It was chilly in here.
- •I turned back to her, but she stood there, no words coming forth.
- •I washed my face, but I still looked like shit.
- •I shook my head. Ranson had to be right, it couldn’t mean anything.
- •I pretended to think for a minute.
- •I shrugged. I didn’t want Cordelia to be hit, but I couldn’t write Danny’s death warrant to save her. The thug lifted his hand again.
- •I stood beside her, next to the door, not wanting to let her go. I started to give her directions.
- •Voices carried from the lawn. I stopped, afraid that, if I could hear them, they could hear me.
- •I’m still alive. Oh, shit, how am I going to pay for this, was my last thought.
- •I was. Even the goulash that Barbara was eating looked appetizing. The nurse did the usual nurse things to me, then went off to see about getting me some food.
I handed her my private investigator’s license. She looked at it for a minute.
“You’re not police.”
“But I work for them.” I decided it was best to be honest with her.
“Prove it.”
“Tomorrow, at lunch, come with me and I’ll introduce you to my contact.” I wasn’t sure Ranson would approve of that, but I was sure she wanted to know what was in that locked drawer.
“I can’t. I’ve got to go to the bakery and get something for the party after Patrick’s show.” I gave her my there-you-have-it look and shrugged my shoulders. “I can’t believe this,” she continued. “Drug smuggling and murders are something from T.V. It doesn’t happen in my life. I’m sorry, I can’t help you.” She shook her head.
“Not real? Ever seen a junkie?”
“Well…yes, but…”
“Where do you think they get their dope? Does the stork bring it?”
“No…still…”
“How old is Patrick? And your other kid?”
“What? He’s eleven. Cissy’s nine.”
“Do you worry about them?”
“Of course, I worry.”
“About doing drugs?”
“No, I hope I’ve taught them better than that.” I looked at her, not believing that no. “Sometimes,” she admitted. “You can’t live today and not worry…I still don’t know.”
But she was wavering. I decided to try a little logic.
“Look, there’s a locked file drawer that…”
“None of them are locked,” she broke in. “I have access to them all.”
“At the end, where you found me. The bottom one under Z.”
“But that’s not used.”
“So why is it locked?” She looked puzzled, searching for an innocuous reason to explain the drawer being locked.
She finally replied, “I don’t know. Are you sure it’s locked and not just stuck?”
“Positive.”
“That’s strange,” she said, more to herself than to me. “I can’t think what might be in it.”
“There’s one way to find out. Let’s look.”
“How? It’s locked.”
“File cabinet drawers are very easy to pick, if you know how.”
She thought about this for a while before she said, “All right. But I have to be there to make sure that’s all you do.”
“If you insist. And if we find what I think we may find, I’ll let you go with me to the police. If not, we’ll probably find out what Milo’s taste in porn is.” Milo was Barbara’s boss. And possibly Mr. Big.
“You think?” She laughed. Barbara had a deep hearty laugh. I liked this woman. I was much happier making her laugh than making her scared. “Now, that would be worth all this,” she added.
“Sorry,” I said, thinking of the bruises that I must have given her. “I don’t really like tackling people in the dark.”
“Oh, I didn’t even mean that. I just meant my two years on this job. Milo can be a real pain in the neck.” She signaled the waiter for another round. “So what do you think he’s into?” she continued.
“Kinky, very kinky.”
“I almost hope it is porn. I’ll get my thrill of the…year,” she said in that slightly disparaging voice used by women who don’t think they’re quite pretty enough.
“Of the year? I don’t believe that.” I didn’t. Women with the kind of eyes Barbara Selby had should have no problem with being unwillingly celibate.
“Believe it. It’s true.” The waiter brought us our drinks. “I’m on the wrong side of forty, size fourteen, and I’ve got two kids. Men may tell you they’re interested in your mind, but only if you’ve got a body like yours to go with it.” There was no bitterness in her voice, just a shrug and acceptance. Barbara struck me as one of those people who get on with life as best they can, no matter what it throws at them.
“But you have beautiful eyes,” I blurted out, “like a horse that knows so much more than the rider she’s stuck with. That’s a compliment, although it may not sound like one. Brown and so deep you could fall into them.” That was a line Danny had used on me that summer we had been lovers. I stole it because it said what I meant better than I could.
She laughed an embarrassed laugh, like I had that summer. “Thank you. Give an old lady some vicarious thrills. Tell me about all the men you have panting after you.”
“Me?” I was too tall, too dark, and had hair that went in every direction but fashionable. I had always been left on the sidelines at school dances. Aunt Greta thinks I became a lesbian because there was no one to dance with me in high school.
“Yes, you. Now that you’ve embarrassed me about my dirt brown eyes, I need something to embarrass you about. You must have a boyfriend.”
“No.”
“In between?”
“Sort of.” The devil and the deep blue sea.
“So tell me the details of your last affair. The hot gossip among my friends concerns Little League coaches and PTA presidents. Not together.” I sat still. “I’m sorry,” she said. “Am I mucking about in something that you’re not interested in taking lightly?” She looked very concerned, mistaking my silence for a broken heart. “Why did he leave you?” she asked kindly. “Or should we just not talk about it?”